a new year

signs in the dark
or a darker version of light
episode 11
season 4
changing sides
over to mine
if I had to spend all my money on something
I'd buy books
and no, not for the kindle
then I'd build a library
with my own hands
to go with my garden
and grow dreams and conversations and celebrations
"...that's your problem..."
only if I agree with you
it could be a gift too
you don't know
are we human or are we dancers?
yes, please laugh out loud
it's so good for you
when asked "is that what you should spend your money on?"
I'd hope that you'd ask yourself
"is this what I think I should spend my money on?"
honest giving is honest loving

practice

my turn to lose sleep
ever wonder if sleep misses you?
iris slow dances behind closed eyelids
kickboxing into the next week
a walk in the park
how do i find you
christmas lights hanging in door way(s)
I wanted to give a ticket away today
but I didn't
almost random act of kindness
do tell
everything about yourself
especially if you're in the military
the first part was a while ago
I can feel these shifts almost every day
learn more from being quiet than anything else
hate if I leave and I wasn't present
or as present as I could be
that's what people really want
just be with them
and for you to listen
there's this woman who wrote this book about fairies
she went to find them after her father passed away
she was just looking for something to believe in
she thought she saw what she saw that she saw
did she see it?
did she feel it?
who really knows the difference between one and the other?
and are they really all just the same?
sometimes you can't really trust your brain
turn your mind off
listen to your heart

for better or worse

a girl walked into a bar
karaoke machine's broken
someone gives a compliment
take it or leave it
on the table next to the coaster
tell him his wife is beautiful
that you love her east coast style
don't worry they're going to fix it
the machine that is
sweet sisters singing
girl orders a drink
introduce yourself to soldiers' wives
social butterfly
look them in the eye
ask a question with your heart
Afghanistan
stay
clear your mind
alpha female
come out of hiding
speak kindly in all the ways you commune-icate
you'll change your mind about me
when you take a real look
find me
or go

dream note

I keep waking up from my dreams while I'm still in them
like my subconscious is trying to let my conscious self in on a little secret
today I couldn't wake up
I mean I was waking up
or I thought I was
when I opened my eyes
you were sitting on the bed beside me
holding my hand
were you crying?
but my eyelids weren't really open
they were heavy like the weight of the world
I couldn't open them
I got pulled back under
holding my breath
to see what happens next
drowning in the waves of the ocean
pulled into the dream inside the dream

dehydrated

salt lick in the shape of a honeybee
touch me
like I'm the only woman on Earth
for you
like you walked 40 days and 40 nights to get home
and the only other thing you might want is a shower
or a child
I can help you with that

people are like a bowl of popcorn
mostly all the same but some taste more like butter
and others have more spice
share your flavor when you rub up against the next guy
makes you thirsty
for a succulent with a reservoir full of rainbows and sunsets
belly dancing queen
painting chosen immutability
water me

rock-a-bye

rock-a-bye baby
hibernate in a little blanket
or a big soft fuzzy one
the size of the sky
warm, just out of the dryer clouds
wrapping safe
holding light
carry through the season
tree top revelry
the bough doesn't break
but the cradle still falls

mid night

middle of the night
this song
in my head
sweating a stifled need to sing
for fear? for love? for fear of love?
but it was two a.m.
choking on a sparrow
climbing out through the throat
to sit on the lion's lip
give a sweet song whiff
to calm the ocean
tried to escape out the mind's side door
a long list of mistaken goodbyes for invitations
gets you a ticket to indifference
broken wing
creeping sideways glances eyelids
self sacrificing beauty is the beast
where's the pink eraser
and the rose colored glasses
seething in between open hearts and closed doors
or closed hearts and open mouths
or open ears somersaulting misunderstanding
leads to growing apathy
coffee's pretty good for breakfast lunch and dinner
when long lists are involved
and whenever you get lost
someone will show you
how to find yourself again
most times it is
you